It’s finally Saturday! Even though my week was uneventful, I found myself counting down the hours until the weekend. I made the most of the day by doing pretty much nothing. The day consisted of gardening and looking up at the sky. I never tire of looking up. Or seeing palm trees. I wish my plants were healthier on the patio but I guess I can’t have everything I want. At least we weren’t raptured — I’m not quite done with my bucket list. Hah.
There is this big blue thing on the edge of town. It’s huge and constantly moving. Its smell is unique and changes depending on the day but it is always refreshing. It is extremely powerful but so peaceful. Hmmm, I love the ocean.
Last year I bought a pair of jeans that were too big for me so that they would hide that I was getting fat. Don’t laugh — I’m serious! Unfortunately, due to my bad eating habits and lack of exercise, it didn’t take long for them to get tight. I was so mad once I realized what had happened that I stuck them in the dresser, acting as if they were the issue. Last week I ran out of clean jeans and pulled them out to wear. I honestly forgot about my disdain for them until I went to button them and realized they were really loose on my waist. Heck ya!
About two months ago I finally came to the realization that I wasn’t taking care of myself the way I should be and that if I didn’t make some changes right then that I would be making it even harder to go back. I asked Matt if I could follow along with him while he did yoga twice a week. Yoga always seemed too cool for me. And way too hard. But losing my ass was no joke so I had to do something.
I really hate talking about my physical fitness because more often than not people respond with, “You’ve got to be kidding me! You are so skinny!” It doesn’t matter how small my frame may be, 25% body fat is not a happy place to be. I’d much prefer to be strong, healthy and at a weight I’m comfortable with. So along with doing yoga, I also cut down my food portions a bit, added more fruits and veggies and started to restrict my chai intake. Cuz, seriously, I doubt Starbucks chai resembles the original in any way besides the name. Emm, sugary fatty deliciousness! Ha.
My whole point of this is that I’m in my third month of doing yoga. I love it. My body feels so much better and I actually look forward to the nights we practice. I’ve gotten noticeably stronger and am looking forward to doing some of the really cool difficult poses. The picture to the left is one pose I want to do — it’s not the most impressive one necessarily but I’ll feel pretty cool once I can do it. Haha. (photo from Women’s Health)
A funny thing happened after I started doing yoga too: I started exercising a couple of extra times a week on my own. I don’t really look forward to those nights yet but I feel awesome after I’m done. I feel like I should run a couple of times a week too but I’m not quite there either. I hate running. It’s another thing that I’ve always wanted to do because it seems therapeutic in a way and I think I’d like it if I can just get past whatever it is that is bother me about it. Maybe one day.
I wanted to share this because all of this has been a big deal in my life in the past few years. I’m nowhere near my goal but I’m glad that I’ve seen a small amount of progress to keep me going. It’s true, my changes may be minute compared to the folks on the Biggest Loser, but each pound I struggle with still feels crappy. I’m not as concerned about looking bad as I am about feeling bad. I want to be stronger and not have to buy new clothes because the old ones don’t fit. Or worse yet, buy clothes that are too big and grow into them. Plus I gotta look good in a bikini because I live at the beach. LOL!
I should have used this picture back when I was drowning in work – it would have been so cliche! Hah.
Life is good. Work has slowed down significantly. Matt is busy as he is entering the last couple weeks of the semester. I’m looking forward to summer so we can spend more time together. And so I will hear less about Meno and Socrates. ^^
We are going to take a gigantic road trip this summer. I’m in the middle of planning but so far I know that we will be hitting these places: Las Vegas, Valley of Fire State Park, Zion National Park, Bryce Canyon National Park, North Rim of the Grand Canyon, Glen Canyon National Recreation Area, Arches National Park, Mesa CO (to see his family), Denver CO (for annual company meetings), Black Hills, Mt. Rushmore, Badlands, Minnesota (to see my family), Tulsa OK, Dallas TX, White Sands National Monument and Phoenix AZ. It’s going to be intense! Both of us are excited to get out of town and see more of the U.S. We’re going to be camping on the way too. It’s going to be tons of fun. Can’t wait to see family and friends – it’s been so long!
The company I work for sent me orchids for Secretaries Administrative Professionals Day this year. I’m pretty sure I squealed a little when I opened the package!
I’ve never had orchids before because I was scared I’d kill them right away. They seem so delicate and I’ve seen all the care and attention people put into them. Ferns are another plant that I’m basically scared of. They are so beautiful! But killing plants is depressing, especially when I’m trying really hard not to!
The orchid has been with me for two weeks now and it’s still looking happy and healthy. If it’s still alive in a month – I might go buy a fern. Haha!
Today was gorgeous! And windy. Perfect for flying kites! Matt and I took a long walk through town and on the beach today with a friend of mine from college. It was tons of fun actually showing someone around our little town!
Today was blah. I can’t figure out why I’m in a funk or how to get out of it. My work day was manageable, I got alone time when Matt was in class, there is nothing too crazy going on in my personal life… yet I’m dissatisfied. Is this what happens when things slow down? My last hope is that I’ll work out some issues while I do yoga in a few minutes… if that doesn’t work, I’m going straight to bed!
